Of trains and cliffs

I’m guessing that at some point in your life, you’ve seen an old TV show or movie that includes a scene similar to the following:

A train is coming down the tracks. Steam rises from its stack as it chugs along. The train zips past mountains, trees, lakes (or perhaps cacti and coyotes, depending on the show). The engineer is in the cab, secure in the fact that the train is on the tracks, perfectly safe, heading toward its destination. The passengers are chatting, reading the newspaper, or maybe taking a snooze, oblivious to anything going on outside.

The camera switches to another location. Here there are more train tracks, but — wait! what’s this? The tracks come to a sudden end and plunge off a cliff! There’s a sign a short distance from the cliff:

Warning! Bridge is out!

Something has gone horribly awry and any train that attempts to follow these tracks will meet sure and sudden doom.

Now the camera alternates between the moving train and the end of the tracks, quickly, multiple times, making it clear that the train full of people is indeed headed for tragedy. The engineer and the passengers are clueless — they think everything is going to be just fine, that they’ll end up safe and sound at the end of the line. But you, the viewer, know differently. Things will not be fine at all.

Then, suddenly, the camera zooms in on a portion of the tracks somewhere between the train and the cliff. Here you see a railroad switch — you know, one of those sections of track where a train can be manually guided from the track it’s on to an alternate track, with merely the pull of a lever. Ah-ha! There is hope!

With only moments to spare, you see that someone who knows the bridge is out has also realized that a train is barreling toward destruction. Maybe this someone works for the railroad company; maybe it’s just one of the local townsfolk who has the opportunity to save some lives. Whoever it is, he races toward the railroad switch, intent on pulling the lever in order to guide the train to safe passage.

As the camera continues to flip (with appropriate suspenseful music in the background!) between the cliff , the racing train, and the would-be hero, you wonder: Will he make it to the switch in time? Will the lever work or will it be stuck in place from years of disuse and rust? Will the train plunge off the cliff, taking all its passengers along for the deadly ride, or will the day end with sighs of relief and gratitude from the now-safe travelers?

Sound familiar?

In so many ways, I feel like I have been watching this scene, over and over again, for the last couple months. Maybe you’ve been here, too: a loved one — maybe a friend, a family member — is that train. They’re making decisions at a rapid pace, unaware that the path they’re following ends in destruction. The bridge is out. All assumptions that “things will be fine” are unfounded. You know it. Others know it. But the person you love can’t see it. They can’t — or won’t — see the cliff around the corner.

At times, I’ve felt like the would-be hero, racing for the railroad switch. I’ve grabbed the lever, pulled at it with all my might, to no avail. I’ve hoped that my words or my actions or my prayers would somehow move the lever, guide the train to safety. But the train has continued along its dangerous track. I am a failure when it comes to track-switching.

I’ve jumped up and down in front of the train, waving my arms wildly, trying to communicate to the engineer that danger lies ahead. But still, the train raced on.

In a way, it felt like the train went off the cliff this weekend. Decisions were made, tracks were laid. I am tempted to feel despair, to give up. But sometimes answering a 9-year-old’s questions helps me see reality a little more clearly.

C., who has known about the racing train for a while, looked at me on Saturday and said, “So it’s too late now? There’s no hope?” Instinctively, I responded with, “There’s always hope, C.. With God, all things are possible. Even though things look bleak now, God can do miracles.” That quick response, harvested from years of Sunday School and Bible study, meant to reassure a little boy that God can do anything, has taken root in my heart. C. fortified it further when he said, “It’s times like this that I’m glad for that verse that says God will work things out for good for those who love Him.”

It’s not easy to feel hopeful when all we can see are cliffs and danger and racing trains. And it’s far too easy to be discouraged, even despairing, when all our efforts are fruitless, when we try to help and to save and to love, but get nowhere. When the lever is stuck. When the engineer holds to his perilous course.

But when we get right down to it, when we remember and embrace the truth, we have to acknowledge God is the one in charge of track-switching, in charge of saving lives. God knows what lies beyond the end of the tracks. God can take a “bridge is out” tragedy and turn it into something amazing. We do our part, we pray for wisdom, and we reach out in love, but in the end, we have to leave the ultimate destiny of those racing trains in His loving hands.

Psalm 33 tells us:

No king is saved by the size of his army;
no warrior escapes by his great strength.

A horse is a vain hope for deliverance;
despite all its great strength it cannot save.

But the eyes of the LORD are on those who fear him,
on those whose hope is in his unfailing love.

In the same way, no racing-train loved one is saved by my measly efforts at switching the tracks. I am a vain hope for deliverance; I cannot save. But I know where hope and deliverance are found. So with the psalmist, I will say:

We wait in hope for the LORD;
he is our help and our shield.

In him our hearts rejoice,
for we trust in his holy name.

May your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD,
even as we put our hope in you.

If you’re facing a “bridge is out” situation right now, if you see danger around the corner — either for you or for someone you love — I urge you to place your hope in God. The trains, and the cliffs, are in His hands. And His unfailing love is real and powerful.

Biting back the lectures

A few weeks ago, C. came home from school feeling a bit despondent. This isn’t entirely uncommon, considering that he is, by nature, rather melancholy. But on that particular day, he had good reason for his attitude. Some kids at school had been thoughtless and/or mean, as kids tend to be, and he’d been the brunt of their actions. No fun at all.

At first, he didn’t even want to tell me about what had happened, but I prodded him and reminded him that when we carry around all the sad and miserable feelings by ourselves, they tend to be much heavier than when we talk about them a little. Eventually, he gave me the scoop.

My first instinct, as Mama Bear, was to rant and rave about those very mean children. But I didn’t. That sort of reaction rarely helps anyone.

My second instinct, since Mama Knows Best (and since Mama Tends to Be Bossy), was to lecture. Not to yell at C. — he hadn’t done anything wrong. But rather to explain exactly how he should handle things, what he should do the next day, what he should or shouldn’t say to the mean children. You know, to generally share my vast knowledge regarding what to do when others have been cruel.

Amazingly, I did no such thing. I’m always telling myself to hold back, to not immediately jump in with all the answers, to give C. space to feel what he’s feeling, to think about what’s happened, to come up with some possible solutions on his own. So, in a fit of actually doing what I always tell myself to do, I kept my lips zipped. At least in the advice department. I told him how sorry I was, and how I know what happened must have really hurt his feelings, and that I’d be upset too, if it had happened to me. And then I left well enough alone.

Later in the evening, the subject came up again. This time I told C. that if he wanted some advice, or if he’d like to know how I might have handled the situation, I’d be glad to share with him. Not long afterward, he told me he would like my advice.

We talked for quite a while about his options. We talked about why those kids might have done what they did and whether or not certain responses would have any effect or whether they might make things worse. I gave him a few examples of what I might do; he told me what he thought he might do. It was a good talk, made all the better because we had it at his invitation. Rather than force all my “wisdom” on him, I let him decide if he wanted it or not.

Not surprisingly, things at school blew over. All the kids are friends again. Apologies were made, forgiveness extended. Things are going along swimmingly, though I’m sure the next disruption will come along before too long. They always do.

But I hope I learned a lesson through all of this. That lesson being:

Sometimes, it’s best to keep your mouth shut.

Sometimes, it’s best to simply offer advice rather than dump it liberally on your 9-year-old’s head.

Sometimes, kids are more receptive to guidance when you give them a chance to request it.

Now, I know lectures or forced advice are sometimes necessary. Just yesterday, C. asked me what “dip” and “chew” were. That information came complete with a rather forceful command to say “No” if he ever came across it on the bus or anywhere else. But he’s a Tween now (much as I hate to admit it), so there are areas where I need to back off a little and let him find his own way, even if that way leads him back to seeing what Mom thinks.

Strange things I do when spelling certain words

I’ve always been a decent speller, but I have to admit that I have “spelling quirks.”  In other words, if I’m typing along, writing and spelling rather mindlessly, but then come across a certain word, my train of thought immediately breaks off and I do some weird thing in my mind in order to spell that word.  Most of these quirks are left over from high school spelling tests, I think.  I had my little mnemonic devices and those devices have outstayed their welcome. I suppose they are burned permanently into my brain.  Here are just a few:

Aggressive — I was a cheerleader in high school and we had a cheer that spelled out the words “Be Aggressive.”  So every time I need to type or write the word aggressive, I break out — internally, only — into “Be! Aggressive! B-E Aggressive! B-E-A-G-G-R-E-S-S-I-V-E!” Sad, I know.  And it can really slow down my typing.

Awesome — Same thing.  ”A-W-E-S-O-M-E! Awesome, awesome, awesome are we!”  Those cheers were truly deep and profound, no?

Thermometer — I always, always say thermo, meter (rhyming with cheater) in my mind when I’m spelling this word.

Receipt – Receipt must have given me trouble when I was younger, because any time I have to spell it, I tell myself the “I before e, except after c” rule. 

Mississippi — This is close to the whole cheerleading thing above, except we didn’t have a Mississippi cheer.  I just learned to spell it with a little chant, and so it always plays its sing-song self in my head when I have to spell out this state.

Breakfast — When I’m talking about breakfast, I say it normally.  But when I’m spelling it, I always split it into break (rhyming with snake), fast.  I have no good reason for this.

What about you? Do you have any spelling quirks?

Book Giveaway: Truffles by the Sea

Today’s book giveaway is the first of thirteen giveaways to be held during the Spring Reading Thing. These giveaways are provided by Bethany House and Revell publishers, and I appreciate their generosity. I have a stack of giveaways sitting in my dining room at this very moment, and they look great. Are you ready to hear about the first one?

Here’s how the giveaways will work:

Every Thursday, I’ll post about a new book that’s up for grabs. If it sounds like a book you’d like and you want to be eligible to win it, just leave a comment on the post and I’ll put your name in the virtual hat. I’ll leave the post open for comments until the following Wednesday at noon. I’ll then randomly pick a commenter and announce that person as the winner when I put up the next giveaway. Please make sure that when you leave a comment, you include an email address so I can contact you easily. Also, I apologize to any international readers, but these giveaways are limited to readers in the U.S. or Canada.

So, without further ado, the first book is:

Truffles by the Sea
by Julie Carobini

Award-winning writer Julie Carobini delivers another delightful story that will appeal to readers of light-hearted romances. In a laid-back style that mirrors the story’s Southern California beach setting, Carobini introduces readers to Gaby Flores, the chocolate-loving heroine with an affinity for drama and an unfortunate knack for dating Mr.Wrong.

After breaking off yet another relationship, watching her apartment building burn to the ground, and discovering her delivery man ran off with most of her business, Gaby Flores decides it’s time to turn her life around.

Moving to a tiny waterfront loft, she works to rebuild her flower shop.With help and support from her friends, things are looking up. But when a lawsuit, an eviction notice, and two surprise
romances invade her newly constructed world, Gaby’s fledgling faith is put to the test.

You can read an excerpt from Truffles by the Sea Here.
Check out reviews of Truffles by the Sea at Amazon.com.
And learn more about the book’s author Here.

A Few Words

Just a few words to describe the last five or six days around here.

1. Books. The Spring Reading Thing is up to 171 participants, as I write this. And I don’t know how you people do it, but there are already 34 book reviews up. I’ve been enjoying reading all the participants’ lists, discovering new bloggers who love to read, finding books that look too intriguing to pass up (and subsequently adding them to my Amazon wish list). You may have noticed that I’ve also been posting a number of book reviews / giveaways / blog tours. Clearly I said “yes” several times in a row to blog tour announcements and found myself doing a whole bunch at once. Yes, “books” accurately describes a good chunk of my mindset lately.

2. Waiting. We have been waiting (and waiting and waiting…) for a window to be cut into our cement block basement as part of our remodel / finishing down there. The masonry guy has scheduled a “digging and cutting day” three or four times… and has canceled each one. He told us he was coming this morning. But it’s 9:36 and we’re still waiting. No sign of the backhoe. I need to go to the grocery store. I need to go buy paint. Yet we wait. I really want this little part of the project over with.

3. Snot. I’m sorry if the use of that word offends you, but believe me, it’s accurate. Several times yesterday, L. came over to me and handed me a booger. The glamour of being a mother is sometimes overwhelming. But I suppose it’s better that he brings them to me, rather than hiding them somewhere where I’ll come across them later. I try to keep up with the nose-wiping, it’s obvious that I’m falling behind. He’s been sniffly and coughing since last Tuesday; I’ve been sniffly and coughing since last Friday. We’re both quite ready for this illness to leave us.

4. Cold. Actually, today could almost be classified as “warm,” but it was rather chilly over the weekend. Despite the sub-freezing temperatures, we arranged for a (very brief) egg hunt for the kids last Saturday. C. was in charge of finding the eggs we had painted; L. was given the task of collecting plastic eggs. They were both wildly successful and we quickly ran inside before our fingers fell off from the frostbite.